Mothers Day is always bittersweet for me.On one hand, I am reminded how blessed I am to be a Mother. For as long as I can remember,all I have ever wanted to be were 2 things...a Wife and a Mother...and today, I am both. There is nothing that makes me happier than being a Mom. I love my Boys to no end. We are blessed to have 2 carbon copies of each of us. They bring an indescribable joy to my life,like I had never imagined possible. On the other hand, I find myself dwelling on the Mother that I have lost. Sadly, my Mom died in 1999. Her passing left a hole in my heart that is slow to heal. As the years go by,sometime I doubt it will ever heal. You see, my Mom and I were extrememly close~two peas in a pod. Perhaps that is one of the reasons that I long for a Daughter of my own so badly. To re-create this amzing relationship that I had with my own Mother. Those who have a Daughter,will tell you, there is nothing like having a little girl.Ever since we were married, Brian has known my desire to have a Daughter. I am so grateful that he understands this desire and has allowed us to go on this long journey to find her. Perhaps I need her to help fill a void that I have in my heart. Perhaps I need her to complete the things that my Mom and I never got around to doing. Or prehaps, its something greater....perhaps SHE will need me as much as I need her. We will both need each other. Whatever the reason that brings her to us;this I know....she will be a Mommy's girl, an over protected little sister,and Daddy's China Princess.
On a lighter note, we got to spend the weekend with my amazing Granparents. I love these 2 people more than anyhing. They are like parents and grandparents rolled into 1. I am so fortunate for my Boys to have their Great Grandparents around. They are so lucky to know them.